Catching up…

Been a while since I posted here…  Well not that long, Thursday to be exact.

Amazingly enough I remember thursday this year.  St. Patrick’s Day is usually a blurry haze for me..  This means either I’m growing up and am more mature, or I don’t have a life and I’m much more pathetic than I used to be.

Only time will tell which.

So the revelation hit this week.  I’ve been falling behind on stuff.  Not small stuff, but I *AM* noticing more and more instances of being reminded to pay bills by phone instead of the usual paper-mail.

I blame quitting coffee.

Seriously.

A few posts back, (Here to be exact) I talk about my ‘self medication’ and how my intolerance of psychotropic medications have led me to some…unusual self-treatments.

One of those was coffee.  I drank coffee.  A *LOT* of coffee.  Like a shit-ton of coffee per day.

How much?  Let’s see.  Average day was 16 shots of espresso.  Heavy day, 20-24 shots.  In addition to my morning cups of drip.

But it worked.

It kept me focused, on track, and going full-throttle.  I was able to manage the fact that I am essentially working two full-time jobs, plus managing a business.

A few months ago I quit.  Cold Turkey.

After the resulting caffine-withdrawal-induced-coma subsided, I started moving forward again.  But slower.  Not as methodical, not as focused, and definately not as often.

Needless to say, things have fallen behind.  So I’m trying to find a balance.  Somewhere between ZERO and the $900/month I’ve paid to starbucks for my fix.

I need suggestions.  Anyone?

I’m loathe to go back to the kind of coffee I was drinking before, though I’ll admit that, out of necessity, I’m having a cup or two every once in a while.  (Like an addict, making excuses, right?)

I’m not interested in trying a medical solution either..  I’ve been an “undiagnosed bipolar” long enough that the insurance comapnies can’t call it a pre-existing condition anylonger. (> 10 years since treatment)  Getting that back on my record could get me kicked out of my policy right now, since the protections for adults don’t kick in until 2014.

So I need help.  I know there are people out there who have dealt with this.  Please, suggestions…anyone…no matter how farfetched.